Embrace life. Those are the two words the Holy Spirit led me to these past few days. I've prayed, hoped, pleaded, grieved and still do at times. Now, however, I feel I can lead this life the Lord has given Keith and I. What I've learned about myself and my relationship with the Lord is too wonderful to want to give up, even if I were able to go back to the pre-MSA days.
I know, it doesn't sound reasonable to most of you. Being forced to look at yourself and life in a unique way is an opportunity that may come but is often ignored because of time restraints. My time now is not my own. This is the part I am beginning to embrace. Instead of just "doing the 24/7" caregiver routine for Keith I am really "wanting" to do it now. I must say, the "selfish" me is putting up a fight. I guess the Lord just had to find a way to get my attention concerning this area of my life. Don't you know, that just when you think you have "conquered" a certain area of your life the Lord can show you there is still work to be done. =)
All of that for now. We have been in Everett about 3 weeks and I am feeling such freedom. Patti and Dave and the entire family have accepted us into their home with so much love. With the weight of keeping up a home lifted I am more relaxed. Even Pepper is more relaxed! I can easily leave Keith for awhile and go shopping since everything is so close. Quite fun. Hopefully we will go to a few movies.
The negative side is we miss seeing Clint and his family as often though they have come here weekly which we enjoy. We miss our church family and friends. To all of you who have come and visited, our days have been blessed by each one. And Keith has someone besides me to play Farkle with.
Thank you to all who have supported Keith and I and our family. The thank you list would be too long to publish but we could not have done it without you.
More on Keith's health next time. He's ok.
