Embrace life. Those are the two words the Holy Spirit led me to these past few days. I've prayed, hoped, pleaded, grieved and still do at times. Now, however, I feel I can lead this life the Lord has given Keith and I. What I've learned about myself and my relationship with the Lord is too wonderful to want to give up, even if I were able to go back to the pre-MSA days.
I know, it doesn't sound reasonable to most of you. Being forced to look at yourself and life in a unique way is an opportunity that may come but is often ignored because of time restraints. My time now is not my own. This is the part I am beginning to embrace. Instead of just "doing the 24/7" caregiver routine for Keith I am really "wanting" to do it now. I must say, the "selfish" me is putting up a fight. I guess the Lord just had to find a way to get my attention concerning this area of my life. Don't you know, that just when you think you have "conquered" a certain area of your life the Lord can show you there is still work to be done. =)
All of that for now. We have been in Everett about 3 weeks and I am feeling such freedom. Patti and Dave and the entire family have accepted us into their home with so much love. With the weight of keeping up a home lifted I am more relaxed. Even Pepper is more relaxed! I can easily leave Keith for awhile and go shopping since everything is so close. Quite fun. Hopefully we will go to a few movies.
The negative side is we miss seeing Clint and his family as often though they have come here weekly which we enjoy. We miss our church family and friends. To all of you who have come and visited, our days have been blessed by each one. And Keith has someone besides me to play Farkle with.
Thank you to all who have supported Keith and I and our family. The thank you list would be too long to publish but we could not have done it without you.
More on Keith's health next time. He's ok.
You sure have a nice place there!
ReplyDeleteIt sure is Clint. I hope you like your place also =)
ReplyDeleteIt is good to hear an update on you. Every time I walk into church it is just not the same without you sitting in your spots. Sounds like your home and family are beautiful! How very blessed you are. We love you.
ReplyDeleteIt's only from people who have experienced deep suffering that I hear a heart like yours, saying that what God has given in the way of deepest, truest communion with Him is the greatest gift they have ever known. I know that you worship Him in the midst of this, and that is a mighty testimony. Thank you for keeping up the posts. You are loved and lifted.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the understanding words and for encouraging me to continue with the blog.
ReplyDeleteI can truly appreciate what you must be going through with the relocation, as generous as those who are sharing their home with you are being! Well, MSA takes a toll on us because it strikes earlier in life than other neurodegenerative diseases, doesn't it? I was 50 when I first noticed my symptoms, and now I am 56. I hope to stay in touch through our blogs. Best to you, and BTW, I love the verse you cited from the Bible in your last posting, my all time favorite, Phil. 4:13, so true, so true.
ReplyDeleteNice to meet you. I am sorry you have MSA. I really don't like this disease and we can understand some of what you are going through. Thanks for posting. Have a blessed Easter. I hope you are able to go somewhere and be among other believers. It is one of the best places for us I know. Among Christians we are most reminded of our God's control. Not the way the world wants it to be however.
ReplyDeleteI so understand the place you are at right now. Isn't it amazing how we can have such joy in the midst of such an awful circumstance? Embrace Life. I love those words. That is exactly what we are doing. Thank you for sharing, We belong to a sisterhood we would not have chosen and are blessed to be sisters in christ. Wee'll be keeping you in our prayers
ReplyDeleteSusan