WOW

Last week was a very difficult week, emotionally. I wanted to lash out at someone or something, sometimes every hour. Those closest to me, know I did some yelling and crying. Thank you for allowing that from me. I don't like those emotions to show but I learn from them. It's not everyday your husband ask you to re-marry after he dies. I told him I could never find someone like him. Then he said, "Try harder!" I couldn't continue talking. Too many emotions to contain in a conversation like that. By last Wed I was desperately seeking a support group for mainly Clint, Kristi and I to be able to talk freely without Keith. He certainly can come if he wants. Trouble is that there are no support groups for MSA so we are looking into ones for ALS which may be the disease most similar. Also, a hospice spokesman directed me to a bereavement specialist. Not knowing what to even ask her, thankfully she recognized that our family is indeed grieving and on a very long, slow and difficult journey. She suggested we three or all set up a meeting which I am in the process of doing.

 I get so many kind and loving comments from you our friends, but this one last week was so comforting. "As far I as I am concerned, you get a 'free' pass." To me, that meant that I would be loved no matter what. No matter if I get emotional. Kind of like our loving God, right?  I am so glad for the unconditional love shown me by all of you. Thank you.

Keith got his power chair. Sort of bitter sweet. We never pictured being a person in one of those. Now we need to look for a handicap van. But there is good news. Keith who was  hesitant about going places is now wanting to look at vans. The dealer brought one to the house for us to try. He couldn't believe Keith had the chair less than two weeks because he drove it right up that ramp and almost perfectly in place the first time. He now realizes we can go to places much easier with one. We are going to look at vans today.

Enough for now, and remember, our family and friends bring us much joy. Can't help smiling when you have grandchildren around!